Body content and soul
Date : 2008 02 17 Category : Commentary ::HorsePigCow:: marketing uncommonmy broken heart broadcasted, blogged, blasted
on the internet
my wreckage for all to view, favorite and bookmark
and the pain still lives in my stomache
in the body
no text characters or media files could fill that void
my emotions are not emoticons
a 
may be ironic
but it will never replace my memory of smiling while I was in his presence
and :-* won’t replace the taste of his mouth
stupid feeling messy complicated flesh world
my 2000 friends aren’t really here to open their arms and pull me close and tell me everything is going to be okay
he won’t post a sign
when did he link to her instead?
yet I continue to publish my shattered ego over and over again
read in several continents
i’m sure they’ll love me more for it
but he won’t
his flesh and blood self is tangled in her real arms
while I send my messages off to be read from afar
I just want to be touched again
really touched
not poked or messaged or emailed
touched
I want those arms to be mine and the tangles to wrap me up
he said he wanted his freedom, but gave me mine instead
his freedom was only from me
the man who related more to his machine than my body is using his body to heal
and i’m left with my machine
[tara hunt feb 17 08]